I spent over an hour last night looking through my blog posts from the past 11 months. I got very sentimental. It was a little like reading my journal – remembering where I was emotionally during different events and experiences. As I was reading, I had a really weird, almost out-of-body experience, kind of like I was reading a blog about someone else’s life.
It totally blows me away to look back and see how God moves in my life. I mean, it’s almost as if He had it all planned out from the beginning.
Take, for instance, my job. I’m working in a job right now that suits me well. I truly enjoy it and everything about it fits my strengths perfectly. However, it took eight years and four other positions at Compassion to get where I am. Looking back now, I can see how God was arranging things from the very beginning, but many times during those eight years I questioned God’s plan.
Another example is my living situation. I’ve never had the desire to live alone. I’ve lived with roommates since I moved out of my parents house to go to college. As soon as I moved back to Colorado after graduating, I shared an apartment with a roommate. From there, I moved into a house with several roommates. As they got married, I’d find new ones. A couple years ago, I bought a townhouse and had several roommates here. Last year, for the first time in my life, I started to get the desire to try living alone. It was right around the time I got a dog, and I was also at a place financially where it was an actual possibility. God consistently provided roommates when I needed them and the means to not need them when I didn’t.
And finally there is the matter of my dating life. You know the story there. Or at least parts of it. Maybe someday I will write more about that, but suffice it to say, that is the biggest example of God showing up with a FAR greater plan than I could have dreamed of or asked for.
Recognizing the hand of God all over my life is a very humbling experience, especially when I feel like I struggle so much with hearing His voice. Even though I might not always acknowledge His involvement, He’s always been there. He is truly worthy of all my trust, faith and hope.
I remember the days of long ago; I meditate on all your works and consider what your hands have done. (Psalm 143:5)
It’s no wonder God called the Israelites again and again to remember Him. Those ebenezer stones. The yearly feasts. It’s hard to think God’s going to be faithful in the future if you’re not recalling His faithfulnesses from the past.I like the way you think. 🙂
The trick, Sister, is projecting that realization into the future. Something that I suck royally at.Maybe if I could get that figured out then I could start doing what Jesus said to do in Matthew 6:25-34.(I woulda linked it for you, but Bible Gateway doesn’t seem to be responding at the moment)
Wow Becky! That quote is amazing and just destroyed my whole argument! Priase the Lord though, I wanted to be wrong. Thank you for sharing. Thank you more for reading. Please know how much I truly appreciate you and how grateful I am for your friendship. You are a blessing!