I spent over an hour last night looking through my blog posts from the past 11 months. I got very sentimental. It was a little like reading my journal – remembering where I was emotionally during different events and experiences. As I was reading, I had a really weird, almost out-of-body experience, kind of like I was reading a blog about someone else’s life.
It totally blows me away to look back and see how God moves in my life. I mean, it’s almost as if He had it all planned out from the beginning.
Take, for instance, my job. I’m working in a job right now that suits me well. I truly enjoy it and everything about it fits my strengths perfectly. However, it took eight years and four other positions at Compassion to get where I am. Looking back now, I can see how God was arranging things from the very beginning, but many times during those eight years I questioned God’s plan.
Another example is my living situation. I’ve never had the desire to live alone. I’ve lived with roommates since I moved out of my parents house to go to college. As soon as I moved back to Colorado after graduating, I shared an apartment with a roommate. From there, I moved into a house with several roommates. As they got married, I’d find new ones. A couple years ago, I bought a townhouse and had several roommates here. Last year, for the first time in my life, I started to get the desire to try living alone. It was right around the time I got a dog, and I was also at a place financially where it was an actual possibility. God consistently provided roommates when I needed them and the means to not need them when I didn’t.
And finally there is the matter of my dating life. You know the story there. Or at least parts of it. Maybe someday I will write more about that, but suffice it to say, that is the biggest example of God showing up with a FAR greater plan than I could have dreamed of or asked for.
Recognizing the hand of God all over my life is a very humbling experience, especially when I feel like I struggle so much with hearing His voice. Even though I might not always acknowledge His involvement, He’s always been there. He is truly worthy of all my trust, faith and hope.
I remember the days of long ago; I meditate on all your works and consider what your hands have done. (Psalm 143:5)